Sunday, 3 March 2013

Ratarea esentialului / Missing the Point


English version follows in the second part of the post

Oameni buni, va propun sa cititi povestea nemaipomenita a lui Arielle Essex, trainer & coach britanic, care ne impartaseste cum a reusit sa se vindece de o tumoare la creier.

Ratarea esentialului
de Arielle Essex, trainer & coach

"Daca am putea vedea miracolul unei singure flori in mod clar, intreaga noastra viata s-ar schimba."
Buddha


Cei mai multi oameni rateaza in totalitate esentialul povestii mele de vindecare. Adevarata vindecare nu are nimic de-a face cu partea fizica, ci are o legatura stransa cu schimbarea interioara de natura spirituala.

Adesea glumesc spunand ca remisiunea spontana a tumorii mele a avut loc doar in decursul a zece ani. Cu toate acestea, nu m-am simtit in apele mele in acea perioada. Intamplarile legate de vindecarile miraculoase ale altor oameni pe care le auzeam, de cele mai multe ori, nu faceau altceva decat sa imi starneasca sentimente de esec si frustrare. Oare care era partea esentiala pe care eu o ratam? Oare ce faceam eu gresit? Oare ce aveam nevoie sa fac astfel incat sa ma vindec? Iar aventura mea devenise strans legata de descoperirea a ceea ce functiona.

Daca nu cunosti povestea mea, tumoarea la creier pe care eu o aveam nu putea fi operata iar medicamentele care mi se dadeau aveau efecte secundare nedorite. Asa ca am fost nevoita sa gasesc o cale de vindecare alternativa. Am crezut ca, daca as fi putut gasi o modalitate de a reduce stresul asociat cu tumoarea, as fi reusit sa-mi ajut corpul sa se vindece. Si aveam dreptate. Lucrand si rezolvandu-mi multe din problemele mele stresante, tumoarea mea a devenit stabila si mai putin activa. Totusi, dupa noua ani de zile, tumoarea mea continua sa se incapataneze si sa ramana la aceeasi dimensiune.

Intocmai precum majoritatea oamenilor care se confrunta cu o boala, si eu vroiam rezultate. Pentru a fi pe deplin sincera, vroiam ca tumoarea mea sa dispara! Dar, in ciuda anilor de lucru ca vindecator inspirational, nu stiam exact cum sa fac sa se intample. Oare remisiunile spontane sunt doar o chestie de noroc?

In fiecare dimineata, obisnuiam sa ma trezesc aducandu-mi aminte ca aveam o tumoare la creier. Si simteam cum un nor negru coboara si ma invaluie. Daca nu eram atenta, aveam dureri de cap teribile. Viata mea era blocata. Trebuia sa evit stresul si sa evit sa ma supun la presiuni. Asa ca nu era nimic surprinzator ca auzeam o voce in mintea mea care imi spunea: "M-am saturat de chestia asta! Vreau sa scap pur si simplu de tumoarea asta!" Totusi, experienta mea in constientizarea mintii m-a facut sa ascult aceasta voce intr-un mod diferit. Simteam furia pe care o reprezenta vocea, precum si nevoia ei de a se lupta cu tumoarea. Iar toata aceasta energie de atac nu facea decat sa contrabalanseze energia de vindecare!

Si ce puteam eu sa fac in legatura cu acest conflict dintre partea din mine care vroia sa omoare tumoara si partea din mine care stia ca vindecarea depinde de acceptare si pace interioara? Din pacate, adevarul gol golut era ca eu VROIAM sa scap de tumoare! Stiam de asemenea ca, prefacandu-ma ca accept tumoarea, nu ar fi avut cum sa functioneze. Stiam ca m-as fi mintit!

Solutia mea a fost sa imi revizuiesc ultimii zece ani. Mi-am adus aminte de planurile mele privind fericirea de la varsta de 39 de ani: sa ma casatoresc, sa am 2,5 copii si sa ma mut intr-o casa la tara. In schimb, am  pornit intr-o lunga calatorie a vindecarii.

In timpul calatoriei mele, am intalnit multi oameni nemaipomeniti, m-am inscris la formari in diverse terapii, am calatorit prin intreaga lume incercand diverse metode de vindecare. Viata mea s-a schimbat dramatic, munca mea a evoluat de la activitatea de osteopatie la cea de vindecare a sistemului minte-corp, calitatea relatiilor mele s-a imbunatatit, viata mea spirituala a inflorit si ma simteam mai fericita si mai impacata ca niciodata.

Fara aparitia tumorii aceste imbunatatiri majore in viata mea nu s-ar fi intamplat. Am inceput sa apreciez faptul ca tumoarea ma motiva si ma ghida astfel incat sa devin o persoana mai buna. Esentialul povestii mele este legat de schimbarea miraculoasa in gandirea mea: am acceptat tumoarea ca fiindu-mi o prietena. Iar, din moment ce ea inca mai era prezenta, insemna ca mai avea o intentie pozitiva de a ma inspira. Asa ca, intr-o congruenta si onestitate neconditionate, i-am oferit tumorii permisiunea de a ramane cu mine pentru tot restul vietii mele.

Si un lucru neobisnuit s-a intamplat: am uitat ca am o tumoare. Nu ma mai trezeam cu acel nor negru. Si am continuat sa-mi vad de viata mea. Ma simteam de parca fusesem eliberata. Sase luni mai tarziu, testul pe care il faceam in fiecare an a confirmat ca tumoarea disparuse. Dar deja nu mai conta. Adevarata vindecare se intamplase atunci cand am renuntat la nevoia de a o vindeca.

Ma amuza adesea atunci cand oamenii afla povestea mea dar se concentreaza doar pe rezultatul final. Le place sa fie impresionati de vindecari miraculoase. Apoi ma intreaba daca m-am casatorit si daca am cei 2,5 copii. Presupun ca finalurile fericite inlatura indoiala si ne fac sa ne simtim bine. Si, de asemenea, aud cum medici spun ca tumoarea mea ar fi putut fi vindecata oricum. Ciudat insa ca medicii mei nu mi-au spus acelasi lucru atunci cand m-au diagnosticat si mi-au dat tratament! Nimic nu schimba o astfel de indoiala. Niciun fel de dovada nu penetreaza un mod de gandire atat de sceptic.

Esentialul povestii mele este, pur si simplu, sa lasi sa se duca. Avem nevoie sa lasam sa lasam sa plece indoiala, scepticismul si dorinta noastra de a avea rezultate immediate. Avem nevoie sa lasam sa plece si atasamentul nostru pentru ca lucrurile sa se intample exact asa cum vrem noi. Si avem nevoie sa gasim acea pace interioara pentru a trai clipa, acceptand tot ceea ce vietile noastre aleg sa ne arate. Apoi, putem sa continuam sa facem ceea ce este nevoie pentru a ne indrepta intr-o directie pozitiva, dar fara stres.

"Am descoperit ca, in viata, daca vrei un miracol este nevoie sa faci tot ceea ce poti face pentru a-l obtine - daca este nevoie sa sadesti ceva, atunci sadesti, daca este nevoie sa citesti, atunci citesti, daca este nevoie sa te schimbi, atunci te schimbi, daca este nevoie sa studiezi, atunci studiezi, daca este nevoie sa muncesti, atunci muncesti, faci tot ceea ce este nevoie sa faci. Si atunci te vei afla departe pe drumul prin care munca ta iti aduce miracole."
Jim Rohn

Arielle Essex

Dear friends, please find below the amazing story of Arielle Essex, a British trainer & coach, who shares with us how she managed to heal her brain tumour.


Missing the Point
de Arielle Essex, trainer & coach

"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change."
                                                                               Buddha

Most people totally miss the point of my healing story. Real healing has nothing to do with the physical and everything to do with the inner spiritual shift.  

I often joke that my spontaneous remission only took ten years. However, it didn't feel funny at the time. Hearing stories about other people's amazing recoveries usually stirred up feelings of failure and frustration. What had I missed? What was I doing wrong? What did I need to do in order to heal? My quest became discovering what works.

If you don't know my story, the particular brain tumour I had was inoperable and the recommended drugs had unwanted side effects. So I had to find an alternative healing path. I believed that if I could reduce the stress associated with the tumour, I could assist my body in healing it. I was right. By working through and resolving many of my stressful issues, my tumour became stable and less active. Yet after nine years, it stubbornly remained the same size.

Like most people facing illness, I wanted results. To be honest I wanted my tumour to be gone! But despite years of working as an inspirational healer, I wasn't sure how to do this. Are spontaneous remissions just a lucky fluke?

Every morning I used to wake up remembering I had a brain tumour. It felt like a black cloud descending on me. If I wasn't careful, I'd suffer terrible headaches. My life was on hold. I had to avoid getting too stressed or exerting myself too much. So it was not surprising to hear a little voice in my head saying, 'I'm so sick of this! I just want to be rid of this tumour!' However, all my training in mindful awareness made me listen to this little voice differently. I sensed the anger it represented as well as the desire to fight the tumour. Such intense attack energy is the opposite of healing energy!

What could I do about the conflict between the part of me that wanted to kill the tumour and the part of me that knew healing depended on acceptance and peace? Unfortunately, the honest truth was that I DID want to get rid of the tumour! I also knew pretending to be accepting would never work. I'd know I was lying to myself!

My solution was to review the past ten years. I recalled my plans for happiness at the age of 39: get married, have 2.5 children, and move to a house in the country. Instead, I'd embarked on a long healing journey.

During my journey, I met many amazing people, trained in several therapies, travelled the world trying out different forms of healing. My life changed dramatically, my work evolved from doing osteopathy to mind/body healing, the quality of my relationships improved, my spiritual life flourished and I felt more happy and at peace than ever before. Best of all, I realized I liked myself better. I no longer felt driven to achieve in order to be happy and acceptable.

Without the tumour, these major improvements may not have happened. I began to appreciate that the tumour had motivated me and guided me towards becoming a better person. The point of my story is the miraculous shift in my thinking: I accepted the tumour as my friend. If it was still in my head, then it must still have some positive purpose to inspire me. So with complete congruence and honesty, I gave the tumour permission to stay for the rest of my days.

A funny thing happened next: I forgot I had a tumour. I no longer woke up with a black cloud. I just got on with my life. It felt like I had been set free. Six months later, my annual test confirmed that the tumour was gone. But it really didn't matter to me anymore. The real healing happened when I let go of needing to heal it.

It often amuses me when people hear about my healing story but only focus on the end result. They like being impressed by miracle cures. Then they ask whether I got married and had my 2.5 children too. I guess happy endings remove doubt and leave us feeling good. But I also hear medics mutter that my brain tumour would have resolved anyway. How odd that my doctors never said that when giving my diagnosis and offering treatment! Nothing changes such doubt. No evidence makes a dent in such a skeptical mindset.

The point of my story is simply about letting go. We need to let go of our doubt, our skepticism and our desire for instant results. We need to let go of our attachment to having things our way. Instead we need to reach that inner peace of living in the moment, accepting whatever our lives choose to show us. Then we can continue doing whatever it takes to move in a positive direction, but without the stress.   

"I have found in life that if you want a miracle you first need to do whatever it is you can do - if that's to plant, then plant; if it is to read, then read; if it is to change, then change; if it is to study, then study; if it is to work, then work; whatever you have to do. And then you will be well on your way of doing the labor that works miracles."
                                                                       Jim Rohn

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